Flying
I wrote this in an old journal, to try to explain this deep link with the notion of flying that I have.
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Over the last few years (3 to be exact) I've had something weird happening.
Several times I've played a new CD in the background, as I've been working,
and a song has jumped out at me, and I've found myself humming it. I then
go and check out the lyrics (because as an ex-singer, lyrics and harmony
has always been important to me).
Each time the song is talking about flying, freedom, moving out of old
patterns, not being limited, not being afraid.
"Crazy" - In a sky full of people, only some want to fly
(I did a graphic for an old site on that)
"72 hour daze" - Waiting for the time When I will fly away
(Imaginate)
"Afraid to fly" - Don't be afraid to fly, just let go; With
the sunlight in your eyes; Climbing that cloudy maze all night; Separate
this world in disguise; Surfing the moon-struck horizon; You're already
drifting through tomorrow; Turning the black holes into stars (Garage
Mahal)
There's been several others as well, all talking about reaching out for
freedom, standing out from the crowd, not being afraid to step out and
do what you need to do to move ahead.
Then this week - "Soar" - Don't be scared; To fly alone;
See in your hands the world is yours; What are you waiting for; spread
your wings and soar.
where the whole song is the culmination of what I've been feeling I should
know, for the last few years.
Now the question is, how do I soar? I feel like I've been standing on the edge of things for so long, almost flying, but not quite getting there. How do I move forward from here?
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I found another entry later on that commented on this:
Sometime in the last few days, I think I've come up with an answer to the question posed last week in this journal ("Soar"). I think 'flying' is choosing to not be limited by my own perceived inadequacies - to take up challenges as they present themselves and just 'be' without stressing all the time. For the first time in a long time, I'm really enjoying being me. In fact, I don't think I would change places with anyone at the moment (not even a younger prettier me). I know I still have to deal with the aftereffects of some of the things I've been through, but I feel really relaxed about it, like everything is just going to happen if I stay calm and just 'be'. (Sorry to sound new-age-ish, but I don't know any other way to explain it.)
Last modified 26/12/2003
